We have a dream, we have a direction, and now, we wait.... and wait....
Justin applied with the ND state patrol, not only would that job give us the money for a farm and animals and starting things up, but hopefully some great connections too. We're very hopeful, but as with anything government it takes forever to hear back. another 2-3 weeks to find out if he made the next cut :-(
This idea has no more form then it don't when it came to us. BUt I still have the huge draw to step beyond myself. Rasing children and taking care of a family is a great thing, but I know I can touch so many more lives. Its a great goal, to raise children who will do good in the world, but isn't that what my parents did? I'm not hurting anything, and in little ways I hope I'm doing good, but I'm not stepping out to help, how will things change if my only goal is to raise good children?
and there ends my time to write.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
how will it all work?
My mind is running, planning, thinking, how will this all work?
Mainly, what changes and affects will this have on my family?
My biggest concern, safety of my children.
Bringing teen aged boys into a house will small children, honestly seems crazy to me.
To big of a risk. Why put your children in that position?
Locked doors
protection dogs for each of the kids
that is what is going through my mind.
I naturally tend to have a fear of most people that are not like me. Growing up in northern MN I ended up being very culturally sheltered, there just isn't a large variety of people there to be exposed to.
But I have to come back to, if God has told us to do this, he will provide and he will protect.
Justin and I were talking about these concerns and fears. I said "maybe we should wait until the kids are older"
So he said "close your eyes, what do you see?"
I see a farm, a garden, horses, lots of horses and animals, and I see my kids being little kids, learning from the older boys and teaching them at the same time. I see all of this taking place with small children.
And so, that is my answer. More trusting God, more having faith that he will protect and provide.
Mainly, what changes and affects will this have on my family?
My biggest concern, safety of my children.
Bringing teen aged boys into a house will small children, honestly seems crazy to me.
To big of a risk. Why put your children in that position?
Locked doors
protection dogs for each of the kids
that is what is going through my mind.
I naturally tend to have a fear of most people that are not like me. Growing up in northern MN I ended up being very culturally sheltered, there just isn't a large variety of people there to be exposed to.
But I have to come back to, if God has told us to do this, he will provide and he will protect.
Justin and I were talking about these concerns and fears. I said "maybe we should wait until the kids are older"
So he said "close your eyes, what do you see?"
I see a farm, a garden, horses, lots of horses and animals, and I see my kids being little kids, learning from the older boys and teaching them at the same time. I see all of this taking place with small children.
And so, that is my answer. More trusting God, more having faith that he will protect and provide.
How it all started
I remember the moment the seed was planted
It was an evening when I was a young teen, I was watching a movie. I don't remember the name of it, but it was about a young teen boy who was taken in by this little tiny old lady, he tried to steal from her, he didn't know how to accept her love. She should have been scared of him, but she wasn't. She did the right thing, she started to take care of him, accept him, love him, teach him, SHOW him the right way. He didn't understand why, I don't think she udnerstood why. But they learned from one another and in the end, saved each other from a lonely life.
God stired something in me that night, gave me a desire to do the same thing that that old lady did.
Its never been the driving desire in my life, always a back thought. Anytime I see a news peice or a story about people taking in teens, showing them a healthy family, teaching them what no one else would, I'm stired. God always has said "another time in your life, not now"
Yesterday God said "Now is the time"
Justin and I were sitting in Sunday school and our teacher challanged us to pray, to put our far fetched dreams, our burried desires out before God and see what he will do.Will he say no? Or will he make huge things happen?
We were stired again. Justin and I looked at eachother after class and said "we need to talk!" We left the kids at church and played hookie from service, where we both said we felt God was saying its time.
We "think" that the state patrol job that Justin is applying for will be the way back to the area, the way to be in a place where we can afford a house with room for more "members" where we have land and a farm and the space to teach skills.
We don't know the details. We only see taking in young boys. Showing them what a family is, teaching what it means to be real man, and teaching skills that are becoming so lost. Gardening, canning, animal care, anything and everthing we can. Skills that are becoming a way of the past due to technology, but that still need to be passed on.
And so, we are asking you to start praying for us, that God will show us what to do and what his plan is.
This isn't the start of the journey, but it is where the rubber hits the road, this is where my faith needs to go from words to actions, where we step beyond our family and see what great and amazing things God has in store. Beyond the normal and everyday and into the hard, gritty and hopefully amazing work of God.
It was an evening when I was a young teen, I was watching a movie. I don't remember the name of it, but it was about a young teen boy who was taken in by this little tiny old lady, he tried to steal from her, he didn't know how to accept her love. She should have been scared of him, but she wasn't. She did the right thing, she started to take care of him, accept him, love him, teach him, SHOW him the right way. He didn't understand why, I don't think she udnerstood why. But they learned from one another and in the end, saved each other from a lonely life.
God stired something in me that night, gave me a desire to do the same thing that that old lady did.
Its never been the driving desire in my life, always a back thought. Anytime I see a news peice or a story about people taking in teens, showing them a healthy family, teaching them what no one else would, I'm stired. God always has said "another time in your life, not now"
Yesterday God said "Now is the time"
Justin and I were sitting in Sunday school and our teacher challanged us to pray, to put our far fetched dreams, our burried desires out before God and see what he will do.Will he say no? Or will he make huge things happen?
We were stired again. Justin and I looked at eachother after class and said "we need to talk!" We left the kids at church and played hookie from service, where we both said we felt God was saying its time.
We "think" that the state patrol job that Justin is applying for will be the way back to the area, the way to be in a place where we can afford a house with room for more "members" where we have land and a farm and the space to teach skills.
We don't know the details. We only see taking in young boys. Showing them what a family is, teaching what it means to be real man, and teaching skills that are becoming so lost. Gardening, canning, animal care, anything and everthing we can. Skills that are becoming a way of the past due to technology, but that still need to be passed on.
And so, we are asking you to start praying for us, that God will show us what to do and what his plan is.
This isn't the start of the journey, but it is where the rubber hits the road, this is where my faith needs to go from words to actions, where we step beyond our family and see what great and amazing things God has in store. Beyond the normal and everyday and into the hard, gritty and hopefully amazing work of God.
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